Let's see, cleaning will include making sure I go back to a gluten free dairy free diet for a while. A cleanse, if you will. Ditto on cutting back on sugar, coffee, and alcohol. (sigh, I know this will help but this will be a bit more difficult).
When I think back to earlier this fall when I was deliriously happy, I remember that, hey, I was planning on spending 3 months at the cabin this summer. Plan hereby reinstated. And then I was going to move to Atlanta, try to get a job at the Center for Puppetry Arts and start ASL interpreter training. Check and check. Even if this doesn't happen, just having some plan in place allows me to breathe a little easier and shake the fog that's been clouding my head for over a month now.
This does mean adjusting my involvement in the project in Chicago to be more of a consultant and teacher, which is a-ok with director-man James and playwright Stephen. I'm thinking I'll spend a month; a couple of weeks before rehearsals start and a couple of weeks after, then back for the opening. Phew. Anxiety lifted.
It also helps that I've been taking Scout for long walks, and today, even though I had to get up at 5 am, it's SUNNY! I swear, the sun really is amazing, and makes all things seem easier.
I am completely aware that this blog chronicles my shifts from intense freak-out-age and planning and coping, but these are things I've realized I will be dealing with at least every three months for the rest of my life. It helps that I'm neurotic and actually do know what to do when I'm feeling ridiculously overwhelmed even if I have a hard time actually enacting those ideas.
Encouragement helps though. Send me some love!
2 comments:
Big-ol'-wet-smoochie. MUAAH!! I LOVE YOU! Who DOESN'T love you? Who WOULDN'T love you? Who COULDN'T love you?
LOVE-ing the Atlanta idea.
And take comfort in knowing that we are all going through the same things you are--even if our lives aren't as excited as yours! I'm so proud of what you've made of your life so far--living the dream, baby--it will work out for you--I know it will.
Much love from the south (sunny? I miss the sun--it's been too cold--even a lover of the rain and cold is starting to pine for summer)
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